lost?

So I am far from thrilled with my life as it stand on so many levels. I could probably count the levels but I'm too frustrated to do so. Firstly...pops is dating, whatev that's fine..he can get on with his life. I should be happy but as anyone knows it's the not easiest emotion to go through. When he says "what are you doing for thanksgiving? I've been invited to Connecticut" ...I didn't know how to take it, still don't actually. I know he doesn't really like my mom's family too much but this is too much too quick for me. May 11 2006 wasn't that long ago. It's my brother's birthday today so I'll e-mail him and see what his plans are otherwise I'll probably just stay home and be pissed off. If even he and I go to my cousins' it'll be ok. We'll see.
Secondly my job isn't cutting it for me. Calls from student loans annoy the shit out of me because I don't have money for them. I think I'm just going to become a hermit for a while and only drive to work and back. As long as I go to Dave's on Thursdays and movies on Tuesdays then I'll see my closest friends.
Thirdly I suppose..I've been trying to come by some software so I can make extra (needed) money from editing. Thankfully my buddy came by some that could help me but I'm having a hard time to get them to work..which adds to my shitty mood. The only thing making me feel slightly better is people agreeing with my mood or understanding it. I'm not looking for advice unless it's "hey i have a job for you" or "this is how you can defer your loans". I'm also not enjoying when people are just oblivious to other's problems and try to be overly funny...it's only one person actually and he's always been the same way. Whatev. I won't go into what else has added to my frustration because..well I don't even know what to say but I know I'd hate to go online and read how someone felt about me.
Either way I don't know what I'm going to do next, where I'm going to do it..or why actually. I do know that I am going to the gym in about 8 minutes to run my ass off and blast my ears with the grittiest metal music that is on my iPod.