thoughts from the workplace...

I hate "shine radio" anything preachy really..and that is the epitome of preach. I like to come into work early (as cold as it is my "office" was warm today! I sat back, turned on my radio..started with some Gruvis Malt and started moving files etc. Yentry walks in and Bam! I start rolling my eyes cause of his radio, and he always calls me "brother". He is at least 20ft away from me but he tends to walk over an go through paperwork I haven't touched yet and it's annoying. Also jackie isn't here on fridays to laugh about it with me so I keep it to myself. Instead I'll blog about it like a nerd. Free is an awesome band to hear in the morning also..and the Fugees. Don't tell jackie though since she hates Lauryn Hill after her racist comments. Music is still good. This weekend promises to be a good one starting with Juice's costume concert..followed by something else in costume (that sounds kinky) and the next day is Breanna Marold's sweet 16 party followed by Havican's sweet 27 party. Debauchery is what it is really. Suinday I look forward too because I can sleep in, and sleep in I shall!

please please please, let me devour what's inside you

So the pops is gettin old. Doin crazy things. I come home from work yesterday to find 8 trees cut down. Not small trees. Giant 20+ years old trees. He has talked about getting someone to look at them..instead he calls a company Thursday afternoon and Friday they show up at 11.30 to cut em all down. He's also begun work on the Mustang. Right meow it is at our mechanic Dave's place to put on some new tires. Some woman he's seeing convinced him to start taking some herbs to help his eye (sometimes it goes out of focus) and to help him sleep better (he's got the sleep apnea thing). I was seconds away from just saying "smoke a joint dad"...not sure how that would have gone down. hah. 

Tonight starts Halloween festivities so to speak..Kelly Havican is having people over and I'm dressing as a vampire. Chyeaahhh. I'm wicked stuck on dancy tunes lately. Kings of Leon, MGMT, Young Love, The Rapture...i'm gonna make a badass mix cd that will be played at every party...evere! Well maybe not ever, but watch out Fat Man Scoop!  

The more and more I think about where I am..in general I think January will yield a new job. Either with www.winkflash.com when they go into more graphics or with a completely new company. 2010 still seems like I'll be in florida, do something I haven't done. Not just get out of the "comfort zone" but...sometimes I think maybe I'm in the position I am in so that I can move for some ridiculous reason that I don't know. One of those "well if i never took that left then I wouldn't have seen so and so" I'm an optimist so I figure it'll be "if I never moved to Florida then I wouldn 't have gotten that job" or something of the sort. It could be anything but it's what I keep thinking.  Nothing has quite changed my mind about it so I keep planning on it. 

Stay positive and keep thinking right? An answer will come along and put me in my place. For now it's time to get ready to become a vampire...I wonder how well the teeth will work, maybe I can open my beer with them, time to get to work on this!

moving right along

So I'm another week into the new jobee. It's warming up to me. I enjoy it but last week was super busy and ...it wasn't too much at once but I haven't mastered everything yet so I just pictured everything that could go wrong would. However, it was all good. Jackie talks of always looking around for jobs though, and she's been there for a year-ish (i forget exactly) so I feel as if I can work there for a year...maybe until I decide to move to West Palm Beach :) 

I've always admired people who do such things as move away for a while and can leave everything. I know right now I could benefit from doing something that drastic (to me it's drastic). Even following Ryan Lang's blog about the chapter in his life about grad school. Ya see...I had lunch today with Lisa Marold who is always taking a step back to see where she is in life an how to better herself. When we worked together we always talked about awesome plans, some of which we followed through on, others fell through. We always talked about getting new jobs, and motivated each other. I had mixed feeling about leaving Haxton's because I knew she'd be happy to see  me go and a bit sad cause..well I'd be leaving.  So the moral of the story is to be a bit selfish when you're trying to figure things out. I've always enjoyed the quote "It's in change that we find purpose" and it couldn't be more true

Eulogy - Ben Kenney

If I die from

Something so much less than smart

Know you've always held my heart

Even if we're torn apart

If I leave you

Underdone and under whelmed

Just remember how it felt

Try to think of how it felt

I want my eulogy to say

He was the kind of friend that no one could replace

And I want my family to know,

That I love them more than words will ever show

If I miss my

Chance to make things right with you

Know how much I want it too

Know how much I need it too

Maybe someday

We'll look back at this and laugh

Maybe this is all we have

Maybe this is all we have

I want my eulogy to say

He was the kind of friend that no one could replace

And I want my family to know,

That I love them more than words will ever show

I want me eulogy to say

If I die from

Something so much less than smart

Know you've always held my heart

Even if we're torn apart

I want my eulogy to say

I want my eulogy to say

I want my eulogy to say

And I want my family to know,

That I love them more than words will ever show

first Blog

I used to make fun of bloggers even though I more or less blogged on a weekly basis via myspace "surveys" which aren't really surveys at all but instead are a way of addressing if you're single or not and if so why...without directly mentioning one person. It also allows me to tell people who choose to read it what I am doing that week, what I'm wearing, what I'm listening to etc.  Stalking with permission to an extent. Now that I have weekends off I find myself ridiculously bored and looking for things to do. I've been cleaning my room and office, washing laundry far too often, reading more, watching more movies..whatever I can to occupy myself. I've been going to the gym 5 or 6 times a week too and feel awesome. The biggest weight on my chest has been money. Who doesn't have this concern right now? With the new job I was two weeks without pay and now that I did get paid...my other payments all went through so now I have about $8 chillin in my checking account waiting for Friday. I must thank all of my friends for being there in the meantime when I say "I don't want to go out I don't have any money" they'll all spot me a beer here and there saying not to worry about it. I chalk it up to karma and my wonderful friends wanting me to get drunk :) 

About the new job...it's fun. My boss is the DJ for Poorly Drawn People so it's almost a given that he's a well rounded character. His artwork is amazing too, a lot of graffiti art. I throughly enjoy being around artwork all day too. I'm back to using photoshop on a daily basis and listening to broader spectrum of music (if that's possible for me?) because of Pandora. My good friend Jackie likes Oingo Boingo and Talking Heads, whereas Sterby only listens to underground hip/hop...and I suppose I got everything in between. I work next to a very nice woman Dominga, who speaks very broken english. I'm minutes away from picking up Rosetta Stone. Gentry is the man who is love with Christ..calls me "brother" (i think he forgets my name) and listens to religious radio all day. I'm very surprised he doesn't hate me for all the f-bombs that come out of my speakers. I do have the "hey Gentry my brother is a seminarian" card up my sleeves...then he'll love me. I do miss the Haxton's crew of course but not so much the workplace. 

My dad is a habitual pack-rat and I think it's finally getting to him. He's been dating recently and I'm sure he's learning as I have that it's not too impressive to show a woman your house that is far from clean. My mother only tolerated it because she was a saint and married to my father for 30 years. Today he spoke of moving our offices together into the dining room. Which makes complete sense because he and I haven't used the dining room since last Christmas when we invited some aunts and uncles over. Lately we've just gone to his brother's place for everything. My aunt Kathy is a neat freak so he sees our house isn't fit to host people. That's probably why the 1 party a year I have is outside. The thing that got me though was when he said we should "part" with some furniture. I'm all for it..but it was just the way he said it. It's a new chapter I suppose. So...time for a new pen.